I have known the
richest scent of life.
With beautiful eyes,
I have seen
every last beautiful thing.
Is there no part of my body
that does not sing
I am sated,
the way the cicada does
just before she dies?
Night of the open heart,
I strive against my tightening song,
against the sad and familiar
crust of my human days.
New, new again beside
your blue dangers,
I fear death,
and life shivers in my blood.
To be new is to be merciless.
On your plain swept of regret and love,
I place an orange, round and alone.
As I peel it, it forms a hurt the shape of a moon.
And because I am empty
and pained by the passing
of everything I’ve been,
its juice afflicts me with a new love.
Night of the open heart,
to ache is to ripen,
to know the bitterness of new growth,
and the possibility of catastrophes.
But to the clenched darkness
and to the hollowed peel of my old heart,
I reply with the wounded orange’s flesh,
raw and sweet and undefeated.
I afflict you with a mutinous night,
I brand you with it’s terrible star.
You, so well put together and kept like a tower,
see how what you were recoils in terror
from your face of besieged pleasures.
I give you my primitive loam.
You shed your name, your eyes.
I reveal my swift skin
that loves the continents of your young body.
You sense a loss of homeland.
I want you to realize
what this mutinous night is for,
exhaust this blue wick of sadness.
I want you to cherish
the extent of our desolation,
while you and I are nothing more than
forehead, breast and nape,
entwined in a void of love.
you’re burning up.
What terrible fever have
I put in you?
the fever burns you
in and out of love.
Damn it baby, I want your fever too.
Your skin hot on my tongue,
your breasts like flame,
your violent whimpers
scratch like thorns.
The louder you get,
the closer I come to a star of agony.
Beautiful mama, I’m burning up.
What terrible fever have you put in me?
I want your disdain,
I want your coy hips,
I want your blood’s exhaustion,
I want the anarchy of your dark sheets.
You, my most terrifying friend,
I have needed you before all others.
When the women in my life
pained me with a broken shard of perfume,
I sought you in the moonlit streets,
and we would converse
in wide arcs of anger and solitude.
Being a morose man, I needed your dark humour.
And when the world took its too solid forms,
as if to spite me,
and the day threatened me with
a well laid plan,
I would come to you,
my oldest, most terrible friend,
wine bottle tucked under my sleeve,
ready to erase the edges of what I was becoming,
and you would remind me of what is essential;
the absurdity of the moon,
the chaos in my heart.
We get drunk and play with fires.
Faces burn like sparklers
under falling cinders.
In and out of shadow,
in a certainty of ashes,
and nobody heeds the warnings
on fireworks boxes.
Everywhere we abandon
the salt, the sun,
and leave lovers to their sorrows,
beauties to their games,
death in a suitcase with the dead.
Tonight, we burn the sky with an
we paint in circles and eights,
our bright hearts in the dark.
She could cure me with those black eyes.
Or she could be tonight’s infinite hair,
let down for me to drift in,
exhausted by a sexual shore.
She destroys the dawn at its edges,
she corners the world in a room.
With a smile, she torments it
until the confessions flow like blue honey.
In a room the size of a pin
I hold her gaze,
to delay catastrophes.
I discover expanses of desolation and love.
The night brings its own openings,
its own fissures of chance,
to those initiated in its bittersweet fruits.
On a bridge strung from dark star to dark star,
youth blooms from the icy flow,
and I am thrust from my memories,
and I am shown the beginning of my life.
I am filled with the beauty of
what is to come,
and the immensity of my soul.
The galaxies full of sadness,
that until now waited,
embrace me like a comrade,
while the night sings in a riot of stones below.
And I am now the sensation
no one could describe,
and I am equipped for my life
with a blindfold of journeys,
and I wear a robe of mountains.
What secret do I hold,
where do I find in this
a wind of promise,
a map of belonging?
There is no familiarity
raised around my soul
a future palm,
a mischievous beckoner,
sometimes grasps me,
leads me to ever increasing
continents of vulnerability
Do you think that only
I hold this secret,
that alone, I arrive
at the equatorial flower’s
But you ignore
your parallel self,
its pitiless multiplicity,
as if it had come
un-tethered from you;
it leaps and plays beside you
in an unseen ocean,
where you could learn to
fear again, your own impossibility.
No, I am no different
but I have conversed alone,
Fierce white feet,
paddling harder and harder
on the bristling waves,
somersault of light,
a foam of dolphins
drenched their glistening fears.
Player piano and the
mazurkas of the forbidden heart,
it killed us with a bowl of fruit,
a single pineapple that
reached the shore.
Round and round in circles,
fierce little feet,
their widening wake,
carrying the laughter of
I thought of spiders and seabirds,
things that never dreamed of death,
or burst pipes,
or a broken coast.
And the children trailed their toes
and combed the sea’s green hair.
She shuddered at their touch,
she welcomed their kisses,
and the paper boats that ignited
beneath a flaming feather in the sky.