Night of the open heart,
I strive against my tightening song,
against the sad and familiar
crust of my human days.
New, new again beside
your blue dangers,
I fear death,
and life shivers in my blood.
To be new is to be merciless.
On your plain swept of regret and love,
I place an orange, round and alone.
As I peel it, it forms a hurt the shape of a moon.
And because I am empty
and pained by the passing
of everything I’ve been,
its juice afflicts me with a new love.
Night of the open heart,
to ache is to ripen,
to know the bitterness of new growth,
and the possibility of catastrophes.
But to the clenched darkness
and to the hollowed peel of my old heart,
I reply with the wounded orange’s flesh,
raw and sweet and undefeated.
I turn my back and laugh
at the corpse of the day
with a knife in his back,
a smile on his face.
the eunuchs of my memory
slumped and lifeless;
they tried to pin the deed on me.
I have no time for these stragglers,
their parrot-like recriminations
that keep me here
in the sun’s dead temples.
There are thunderstorms,
horizon devouring winds,
that will forgive me this violence;
they ready me for a pure and
It was necessary to become
the self’s inexorable assassin,
to put these enemies of my purpose to rest.
On the other side,
I will be essential dust
in no man’s night.
The night brings its own openings,
its own fissures of chance,
to those initiated in its bittersweet fruits.
On a bridge strung from dark star to dark star,
youth blooms from the icy flow,
and I am thrust from my memories,
and I am shown the beginning of my life.
I am filled with the beauty of
what is to come,
and the immensity of my soul.
The galaxies full of sadness,
that until now waited,
embrace me like a comrade,
while the night sings in a riot of stones below.
And I am now the sensation
no one could describe,
and I am equipped for my life
with a blindfold of journeys,
and I wear a robe of mountains.
We fly through these streets
as though the snow bid us on
deeper into its white and pure
And now and then it touches you,
and you look away.
Do you sense the ruthlessness
of my coarse blood?
On your skin like porcelain,
on which the snow leaves no imprint,
your family has placed
a veneer of dazzling centuries,
and with boreal opulence,
your silence communicates
the burden of their dreams,
which were never yours.
You press yourself tighter to me
so as not to see where it has
and in your sudden lips
I taste the young and violent
Do you now see what passes
at the open window of our swift rickshaw?
A whirling city already modern
and confident in its horrors.
And only now and then the
faint perfume of that other
lost world, from which you came.
I will be the end of your illustrious line.
I relish this,
the way, without even knowing it,
you sink into my arms like a beautiful ruin,
the way I have attained this sentence
over your young life.
Untouched, the fields of soft voice
drop far behind me.
I am the departing grass,
a palm of wind holding only solitude.
the bodies I once held
like a clutch of nights,
are breeze beneath my heels.
I walk alone with a salt of sadness,
utterly my own.
And I aim my bone
at the intervals between love,
at the absence where everything gathers.