The night is clarity.
The clinical night arrives with a bag of instruments,
a jar of dissected silences,
and examines me on a table cold with remorse.
Out comes fear, out comes sorrow,
the wounded tongue,
the toe black with regret.
The surgeon night holds up my entrails
to the mirror of a razor fine moon,
and I see all the defeats of my mouth,
the dark failings of my sun.
But I don’t look away.
There is healing in this,
the quartering of the agonies I keep,
these open fissures where love struggles,
where the hours hew new scars
that will form my life.